Love and Fear

I’m sitting here and my eyes are welting up because I just realized that I am so happy with my life right now. I’ve been happy with my life the last few years, but this is a peak moment for me. There have been nothing besides peak moments which tells me I am on the right path.

No, not everyday is happy but my underlying mood always is. It has been an accomplishment to even bring myself to make this statement.

Life has been full of such wonderful things that make me smile like a crazy person in the middle of the day. Not just things, but art, and I have finally come to the conclusion that it is the path that I am on. I used to deny myself of it because I never thought I deserved the title nor was ever close to becoming an artist. To be completely honest, I still don’t feel close to it. I do recognize what other people see in me now though. It’s a small step forward that encourages me to continue making stuff for myself as well as sharing it with others.

There is an abundance of amazing individuals in my life who I love to see succeed. I genuinely am very excited for the things that each and every one of you are doing, no matter how big or small. Whenever someone shares with me what they are doing I can’t help be amazed because I think how does this person think in such an incredible way. I love that everyone has a different medium and that I get to appreciate. If you’re one of those people then I am endlessly grateful for you sharing the most personal parts of yourself, your art and thoughts, with me. they stay with me.

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Tara

one of my art counterparts

All I have to say is that it is so essential to open your heart and be unafraid of all the possible consequences in this life. There will never not be risks or consequences. Recently I have been thinking a lot about A Return To Love by Marianne Williamson where she discusses love and fear. These are both umbrella terms that we use to describe and pursue life. Essentially, a very oversimplified version goes like this…

Love: happiness, joy, excitement, passion

Fear: sadness, anxiety, pain

Both love and fear come with consequences and failure – there is no way getting around this idea. However, the consequences and failure are different from each other. If you live with fear then failure normally equates to regret of not having an experience. If you pursue with love then your failure just means you didn’t succeed, but you received an entire experience out of it that you can learn from.

Antoine | my first couch surfing host

Antoine | my first couch surfing host

The whole idea of being human is to make mistakes and learn, so pursue with love instead of fear. Accept and be happy with your mistakes. I’ve made more than anyone knows. I’m at a point where when I make one then I’m just like whatever bro, what’s next?

I came to Paris with the intention of staying and working, but something so much better is going to happen if I remain patient. This is something that I will most definitely pursue with love. My entire plan has changed after just a short amount of time here.

I always remind myself that movement is the key to my own opportunities and success. If I stay in one place then I will never figure anything out, but doing something outside of my normal routine gets me to where I need to be.